ND

Part of me wants someone whom I shall refer to as ND. We argued today. It happens every so often, but we resolve things quickly and continue our talks. I know he and I will never be anything more than friends, but he is so much more than a friend - I can always count on him for sound advice, calm and collected discourse, and a sense of calm that puts everyone at ease. 

The safety he brings to my life is incalcuable. During the worst several years of my life, he became my closest friend, and even though there were some horrible things that happened that I just couldn't talk about at the time, I know he noticed them and just remained a steadfast support system. 

I moved away, and then he moved away, and I feel that distance as we both pursue lives that we can shape on our own. We are not as close, and that is okay. It just hurts, though, and I know he'd probably be the first to say that it's okay to not be okay sometimes, and that those feelings can eventually lead to what we're supposed to find. 

I know he'd say these things because he has said them before. 

I just miss my friend.