I'm beginning to hate my parents. They don't seem to believe me when I tell them I'm in pain. My dad even goes so far as to tell me I am just not trying to relax and fall asleep. I am hating every second in thi shouse. I almost want to die to cause them some pain.

I tried calling a friend I haven't seen in a while earlier toay, but he must have been busy because he didn't take my all. I really needed to feel like it's okay to feel what I feel (an dbecause my parents have told me that that is just not how it's going to be - I am to feel happy and stop being a bitch all the time).

I wish someone would take me away from this crap. I don't know when I will reach my breaking point, but it will probably be soon.