I think my mom is dying.
She never comes out and says it, but the signs are there. Today during my visit, she had another one of her nosebleeds. They are getting more frequent. This time, it made her so weak she couldn’t even stand. I have never seen that much blood pour out of someone.
The post-polio syndrome is slowly taking away her mobility. It’s mostly just range of motion at this point, but I can see where it is going.
The surgery on her eyes and surrounding blood vessels doesn’t seem to be working. She will go blind; we’re just trying to delay it.
She says the expanding vein in her brain is getting better, but I don’t believe her. It’s inoperable, and the medication didn’t work. One of her specialists tried to clamp the vein, but that increased her risk of suffering a stroke. In addition, the blood infection wasn’t totally cleared up with the last few visits to the doctor.
She’s been to three or four doctors in the past few months, usually two times a week.
She also is showing signs of having an aneurism, but her doctors haven’t found it yet.
For a couple years now, she’s experiencing crippling muscle spasms that leave her in tremendous pain with little control over her limbs. I think my dad takes care of her more than he admits.
I’m so scared. I know everybody dies, but I don’t want to lose my mom.
She is so determined to not let anyone know what is going on with her.
3 comments:
Lish, I am so sorry. Please let me know if there is anything that I (or anyone in my family) can do. I am always around if you need anything...I have a few unscheduled days off, so I can come out to your side of town.
Hi, i just thought of leaving you something. I know its really hard for you. But you know my mom's family has a history of dying with cancer and I really really am scared that it might happen to her too. But since my mom is a happy person, she always tells us that if ever she is diagnosed with cancer, she will not care about her death. She will be roaming the whole world instead of taking medicines. We really dont want that to happen but all i want to tell you or suggest is that if you think your mom is dying, make the best out of it. Be with her as much as you can. I know it will be hard. But try to make wonderful moments and soon you'll realize that its over. Love your mom more as you love yourself.
Thank you for your kind words.
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