feeling all song-lyric-y tonight

Gnarls Barkley
Crazy


I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had to let go
In so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably

And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think your'e in control

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably


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I have most of my apartment packed in (mostly) neatly organized and labeled boxes. Jeremy thinks it's funny that I get like this, but it just makes the moving in part so much easier. I don't have to try to remember what I put where - it's all right there. Plus, the fragile items are clearly marked. That way, I don't have to buy all new fragile items. Somehow, though, I misplaced one plate. I have looked everywhere, including in a box that I packed other plates. I'm sure it will be in the most ridiculous place when I unpack.

Jeremy and I talked for a while tonight. He is getting all lovey-dovey. I feel it, too. I think that living with him will be quite good, even though our last run wasn't so great. It had its high points, but I don't think we were in the same place. I started my teaching career (Alicia = young professional), and Jeremy was taking a chance with new career training (Jeremy = flight student), even though he had already stepped out for the student role a year prior and had begun to work in his degreed field (criminal justice). This time, I am yet again the young professional and Jeremy is also a young professional. He will continue where is for now, pick up a second job instructing aviation, and he is starting a business that will contract him to some privatized military training.

I feel cheerful. I have successfully resisted my compulsive addictions today. I just need to get to bed without slipping down that slippery slope. The alliteration in that last sentence was not deliberate. Maybe I should write some poetry. I haven't done that in a very long time. Writing poetry has never been my thing. I've studied it - I enjoy that. I think I just have become a snob when it comes to anything in literature. I am too hard on myself when I look at my own writing. Perhaps next time, though.